Okay. So I am still MASSIVELY frustrated. I somehow gained a pound between yesterday and today. It wasn't the best food day...I had Subway for lunch and Taco Bell for dinner (minus 10 points from Gryffindor for eating fast food twice in a day). I made good choices though. I had a banana for b-fast, ham and turkey footlong on wheat bread for lunch and two bean burritos for dinner. Calorie total for b-fast was around 105 lunch came out around 610 and dinner came out around 700. So my total calories for the day were 1415. I need to be around 1800 for weight loss from what I understand.
I was so proud of myself yesterday because I was able to do an hour and 10 minutes on the elliptical (considering June 1st, I was doing good to do 15 minutes...I considered it nothing short of a miracle). I burned 1002 calories. This leaves me with only 415 calories left over (and I am sure those calories were burned off from the going and coming of the day).
Here's where I get really irritated:
I don't think my body is letting go of the weight because it thinks it is going into "starvation mode"...whatever that is. I think it is really holding on to all that it can because I have gone from zero activity to heavy activity. I also think I need to be eating more calories. I was doing Weight Watchers, but I always get so frustrated because at the end of the day, I inevitably find myself with 15 to 20 points left over...how do I get rid of that many points without eating junk? So when I have that kind of a deficit for the day, I go to get some ice cream and I fill those points. Here's the deal though: I didn't eat ice cream when I was eating "fat"...so why would I eat it when I am trying to eat "skinny?" AAARRRGGGHHH!!! So I threw WW out of the window. I bought a Bodybugg yesterday and I hope that it's going to help me out with a lot of this...
For the meantime though, if any of you has any insight into what I am experiencing will you please help a sister out? I am really irritated. I know my last blog was all about ridding myself of "frustration thinking", but at a certain point I have to get real with myself and say, "This isn't working...what are we going to do now?"
SO...."This isn't working! What are we going to do now?!"
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Hi, just found your blog from a comment on Kristin Steede's blog...you are doing GREAT!!!
I think probably the biggest reason you found you were up 1 pound today is because of the Sodium in the bean burritos you had for dinner last night. I find that when I eat foods with higher sodium in them, I always retain water/gain the next day.
Also - try not to weigh yourself every. single. day. You will drive yourself crazy - trust me, I've been there! :) Once per week at the most - you can do it!
Love your blog so far, and hope to become a regular follower and hope to start up my own blog some day soon!
Keep up the excellent work - you're an inspiration!
Lindsay
Girl, this is SO frustrating to us all when we reach that point. What works for me wont neccessarily work for YOU, but here you have it: I had the SAME problem with WW. I chose to opt out when everyone around me opted IN. I don't count calories all the time either. I don't stress myself out. I eat breakfast, lunch snack and dinner every single day. I just dont OVER eat any more. Instead of a three or four egg omelette I will eat a one egg omelette with fat free cheese and lots of veggies and a piece of whole wheat toast. Does that make sense? I dont overwhelm myself with what I am eating or not eating. I eat when I need to, and that's that. It works so far! I have lost almost 4 lbs in 4 days this week, but I also upped my workouts and am eating a bit more to compensate.
Just go with what your body tells you girl. You will find what works best with you. YOU ARE AWESOME FOR TALKING ABOUT IT!! I know you can do it!
Both of you are so great!!! Lindsay...I didn't even think about the sodium! DUH! I need to just lock my scale in the closet and let it out once a month. It is so tempting though (I was always the kid that peeked at Christmas presents). And Lindsay, I think you should definitely start a blog. It feels good to just dump all of your feelings somewhere. It helps me deal with my "junk." : ) Let me know when you do! I'd love to be a follower!
Ali, that's great advice. I am glad to hear that you had the same frustrations with Weight Watchers. It just seems kinda backwards to allow yourself to indulge when you know good and well you shouldn't be putting those "poisons" that taste so good in your mouth. That's what got me in trouble in the first place. Ah. I guess I'll "Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming" like Dory. ; )
Thank you both for the encouragement.
Linday's absolutely right. The sodium in ANYTHING fast food will kill you. There was probably a lot of sodium in the turkey from your lunch too. Lunch meats tend to be high in that. So you're retaining water, so drink, drink, drink to get rid of it. And GIRL! If you weigh yourself every day we will find you in the looney bin VERY SOON. TAKE IT FROM ME!!! You will drive yourself a short trip to crazy. Once a week is plenty. Take that tip from WW. I just can't bring myself to do WW right now either, but the once a week weigh-in thing is the best approach. I tend to get in the habit of weighing every day and I get so mad at myself because of the influence those three stupid numbers have on my day. It's not fair to yourself to give the scale that power over you. It's a stupid inanimate object, not a cool, living person who's working her tail off. YOU need to be in charge of how you feel about what you're doing rather than giving the power to the scale.
And just a word to the wise from another Type A OCD kinda gal...don't start overthinking things. You will run yourself into the ground. This will not happen over night no matter how well you do. You may have a week where you do everything right and you don't lose an ounce. You know this. You can't get worked up and over think every detail yet. You'll go nuts. Like you said, it's a process...even if you have a week that doesn't show progress, you just have to be committed to the long term. I know you know all of this, but sometimes it helps to hear it. I hope. :) Your body craves homeostasis, so it's going to fight you over this. You have to remember that you WILL win, but it may not go exactly the way you have it planned in your mind.
Focus on the exercise. It will never let you down. :)
Leigh Ann
You are so swee Val! (Can I call you Val?)
And you have me in the mood to watch Nemo now! : )
Before I continue, DON'T beat yourself up over the scale - especially since you are weighing WAY too frequently.
i feel like i'm so behind on posts. *sigh* ok, I too gave up on WW - i do like the program, however, I wouldn't mind following it at my goal weight for maintaining, however - not for the weight loss. I am a "student" in weight loss right now, meaning I am about as clueless as the next person and I'm learning daily from internet, blogs, trainers, friends, etc. I need more facts about nutrition and I just don't feel that WW provides that. :) since you spoke of WW though, I will quote what I say to my co-workers following the plan, "Not all points are created equal." Definate kudos for the wiser choices, however like the girls mentioned, sodium will make you retain like a lake. Also, just curious where you heard the 1800 calories a day for weight loss from? I know it goes by weight and such - but I am a BIG girl and was an even BIGGER girl when I started in February, yet I never was told a calorie count that high (from any source - trainer, weight loss comp leader, websites I've checked out, etc) I've always been at 1500 (that's with high intensity workouts 5+ days a week) or less. it's generally ranged from 1300-1500 depending on my workouts. I'm just curious where the number came from because that's only shaving 200 calories. The daily intake is usually based on a 2000 calorie diet and then you figure your deficit depending on if you are trying to lose, gain or maintain.
Anyways, regardless, keep up the good work. I'm totally proud of your accomplishments...just keep swimming. :) FINDING NEMO is totally one of my favorite animated movies ever, next to Over the Hedge. Dory is seriously the best.
Lindsay, I hope you start a blog too. I'll be a follower. :)
oh yea, and i made my 30 minutes on the stepper yesterday. :) - so your little challenge or dare if you will has been completed. :) now MY turn. lol i actually have three for ya:
1. DO NOT WEIGH YOURSELF MORE THAN ONCE THIS WEEK.
2. @ least 5 days this week w/ a minimum of 20 minutes of cardio each day.
3. POSITIVE THINKING - I want you to write down anytime you have a negative thought this week (when you can at least) and how you CHOSE to make it a positive thought. Send them to me on facebook (personal message) or by email on friday. I want to hear about you taking your thoughts captive and turning them into positive ones.
To start you off with encouragement:
From the time I met you on facebook and through your blog, I've learned that you are not only a BEAUTIFUL woman (inside and OUT), but you are woman of many talents, you are a woman who gets things done when you put your mind to it, you are kind, loving, funny, encouraging, challenging. You like Finding Nemo which totally rocks my socks off and you also are NOT going to give up and quit this time, WE are in it for the long haul.
:) - now have a FUN and challenging week. :)
((hugs))
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